When revisiting memories and seasons of life, you feel things again. Today is my precious Autumn's first birthday, and I have been reminiscing a lot about how she came to be here with me. It's not the easiest thing to relive. Though I see abundantly more of God's faithfulness, I can still feel the fear, pain, and sadness that accompanied my pregnancy with her. My pregnancy with her was of course a surprise, as seems to be the trend with babies around here. My birth control efforts cannot stop the Lord's will. It was fun and exciting to be pregnant again. I was ready for a worry-free, easy pregnancy and birth since there was only one baby this time…